I deamt of cookie dough.... WTF

(Preface: mom I cussed in this one. sorry)

Well its been an entire a week and can I just toot my own horn here for a second... TOOOOT TOOOOT!!! I was so afraid of what it would be like to be at events over the weekend and what people would think when I pulled out my Tupperware at a BBQ or lugged my gallon of water around...but it was never an issue. No one said a word and it was AWESOME!! So thank you to everyone I saw this weekend...for accepting my madness and encouraging me to be strong on this journey.

So let's talk about the shitty side of the first week....I fucking dreamt about cookie dough...and eating globs of it. I don't even like cookie dough!! It was insane and I woke up mad at myself for cheating!! Also the headaches! Lasted for the first 5 days and I think they were related to not eating sugar. (or processed sugars.) Man those were pretty intense but I think they are done with since I haven't woken up with one the last two days. PHEW!!

Now I have to say as proud as I was with myself this weekend, I did have a moment of pure insanity and it had to do with Brett and BBQ chips. That boy was elbow deep in a bag of those salty sweet tasty morsels (Can you tell I Effing love BBQ chips??!?) and without thinking he walked over to me and kissed me...and it tasted FUCKING AWESOME!! How gross is that?!? I wanted to molest his face right then and there just for the pure fact that it smelled like BBQ chips. Sick..just sick.

I wouldn't say that this is the hardest thing in the world but its definitely a great challenge. The key to success is planning..EVERYTHING. Especially your meals! I can't tell you how easy it is to have all of my food prepared in advance so I don't have to even think about, "Whats for dinner?". That way i can't jut run to the pantry and eat the secret stash of dark chocolate bon bons from trader joes someone left at our house around Christmas time...fuck bon bons. 

So here are some snapshots of what I ate this week...and yes every day was the same. But, I'm a creature of serious habit so i Don't mind the monotony. Skinny and Fit tastes better, remember?? ( I forgot to add my banana for snack!! and no I don't drink wine every night, but i traded my udo's oil to have one glass)

 

And here are my workouts from Train Insane this week:  (Wednesday was my day off, so Friday I did Wednesdays workout). Saturday went paddle boarding with some friends and Sunday I went for a nice long run.

Well I'm not quite prepared to post any pictures yet but I am documenting my results on a weekly basis and will share in the new future. I can say that I have lost a few pounds and can notice a small difference in my pictures :)

YAY!!

 Tiny Bikinis, Hooker Heels and a Horrible Tan,

Blaire

I'm gonna wear what?!! ON STAGE??!! Week 1

Well it's official...I've gone crazy and signed up to compete in a swimwear competition December 14, 2013. And by swimwear competition I mean the toned, tan and lucite heel wearing fitness competition!! My good friend Hannah Etherson from Train Insane Gym (the gym I go to) signed up a few weeks ago and has absolutely inspired me to change my not so wonderful habits and do something life changing. Like her, this blog is to keep myself accountable and of course a way to share ideas and the occasional vent. (I mean...how many meals can you eat chicken before it starts to make you gag...right!?!)

So, how does one get ready for an event like this...I HAVE NO IDEA!!! I talked to my trainer Geoff about meal planning, training and what to expect. My first question to him was, " Do you really think I could look like those girls?". Without hesitation he responded with, "Yes!". My anxiety level lowered a little bit at that moment...but i still feel my heart racing when I think about it throughout the day.

First things first, I have to get my food in order, specifically my macro nutrients. For my age, height and weight I have to eat between 1700-1800 calories a day. I know that sounds like a lot, but when 120 calories goes to a tablespoon of Udo's Choice Oil a little part of you dies with that nasty gulp. I am planned to eat 135 grams of Protein, 180 grams of carbs and 60 grams of fat. DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO GET THOSE BALANCED!!!?? Thank god for the app my fitness pal...I've been able to play around with what I plan to eat throughout the week to get all of those levels correct. My biggest challenge is getting enough protein without too much fat. I'm not a huge meat eater either...I like a few bites with dinner, so this is going to be extremely challenging. As Hannah ever so politely puts it on her blog, "I just choke it down" which is the truth!! I just keep saying to myself that being Fit tastes better and I wont care once I feel the changes in my clothes and see the changes in my body.

Am I scared....EFF YES!!! I'm freaking out a little bit. I've never been the type to be a gym rat and my habits have always come and gone. I'm kind of getting that pukey feeling thinking about right now. GULP.

So it's time to throw alcohol and old habits out the window. With open arms I welcome Train Insane 4 times a week and analyzing every piece of food I put into my body.

If anyone wants to know my meals or has questions just let me know and I will do my best to answer them for you :)

Cheers to kicking ass and taking names!!

-Not So Bikini Ready Blaire